it really isn't easy... :(

This pregnancy prove to be a little more than I thought it would be...

I've been experiencing cramps since the day I conceived and the aches looks like its going to stay... I haven't had appetite to eat and been vomitting a lot... Past two weeks were one of the worst episodes... On Thursday I took an MC to see a GP... He gave me vomitting pills and paracetamol for the pain... Somehow after taking the pills I wasn't getting better... The next day I went again to see GP and he told me to go KKH instead so that they can give me a better check up... (Hubby was around with me, he came to shore for a few hours)

Went to KKH O & G 24 Hours Clinic and once there the doc gave a thorough check up... She used a doppler to hear the baby's heartbeat and that triggered of my first scare... She couldn't detect the baby's heartbeat for a full five minutes! I panicked and said a silent prayer... :( Soon enough then the familiar wave like sound came on.. and I breathe again... Phew! Oh gosh baby you really scared mummy for a while there! Please don't do this kinda thing! :(

I can't help but compare that this time it is really different from my first pregnancy... when Siddiq goes on doppler each time it was so clear and distinct immediately... And he started kicking me at about this time... For this baby I've only felt it move once or twice and that too it went right to my left side and stayed there for hours... aggravating the back ache and the pelvic cramps.. I don't want to complain but just need to take note of how it differs....

Anyways then the second scare... the doc says that my urine doesn't look too good... and just as she thought I'm extremely dehydrated from the excessive vomitting and lost a lot of fluids. For this, I had to be kept under observation for a day at KKH. I dreaded and hated this part.... they poke me in and hook me to the drip thingy... Worse still I was on drips for five hours! And the doc pump in some medication to prevent vomitting into the drips as well and just as she said the medication will make me feel funny... I really did... (hubby got a shock when I was wheeled out of the doc's office with drips on me... he didn't want to leave me but HIS SHIP WAS LEAVING IN AN HOUR! I don't want him to be stranded here! :( What a way for us to part during that few hours he was here right?? Sighs.... )

I can't really remember what happened during that five hours.. I remember slipping in and out of consciousness.. and looking at a couple of nurses walking in and out of the bed area I was in.... At some point of time, they did appear to me to have huge gigantic eyes.... And I even thought I was flying or something... I can't remember for sure but well... Then there was this part they had to pump some water into the drip cause it appeared clotty with my blood... OUCH! I nearly fell off the bed during this time... Got so drowsy and woozy from this...

Luckily when all the necessary medication has been given and the doc finally gave the go head that I can be discharged, I happily left the hospital (after getting the tons of medication from the pharmacy)... I really couldn't take staying there any longer... Somehow after this experience I hated the idea of stepping into a hospital till it's time for the delivery itself.. PLEASE GOD.... :(

I just hope the medication they gave me will somehow improve this pregnancy from now on.. I have been waiting for the part where I can begin to enjoy the pregnancy... and still am... I really pray to the Almighty to ease the pain and aches and I really want to enjoy this pregnancy with this baby too... cause I have not manage to up till now... :(

Hopefully the next time I read I will be in a more upbeat mood... and writing happy moments...