A moment to say my thanks... and count my blessings...

In this very busy life of ours, we tend to forget the things that we should be thankful of... not just the huge things in life... but the little ones too... There have been many little things in life that I am so thankful and grateful for... But this post is especially to express how thankful I am to God for blessing me with Siddiq...

As of today, he's exactly 20 months and 12 days old... Seems like a long time right? Strangely for me it really seems like a blink on an eye... It's as though I went for a roller coaster ride with all the ups and downs...screams and shouts and then before I know it.. I am back at the start of the ride and wondering how time just passed and thinking of where I had just been and about the "entire ride" that I just took...

I've not written for a long time... and even a longer time about anything on my little boy... and I had let my work drown me completely for quite some time... Guess it is time that I take a breather to reflect a bit on my life journey with my son...

Honestly it has been one helluva ride... But if anyone were to ask me if I would take the ride again and will I enjoy it? I will say a definite YES!

This little being that God has entrusted to me as my son has taught me so many things about life and I learned far so many things about myself since his birth than I ever did for the first 25 years of my life...

He has taught me how to love without seeking anything in return.... He has taught me that love can be felt without saying a word... He has taught me all about patience... He has taught me that I am human and that I make mistakes but I should always forgive myself and learn to move on...

He makes me feel special and proud... He makes me feel so loved even when the whole world turn its back on me... And I sincerely pray to God that Siddiq will always make me feel this way even when wrinkle lines begin to appear on my face and the time when he begin to look down on me from height...

Siddiq will always be my one and only precious Siddiq.... Hmm.. I don't know God may bless me with other offspring later on in life... but I know deep down in my heart.... My first child will always hold a special place in my heart for all the things he went through with me and for making me the mother I am today and a better mother tomorrow....

Why he never fails to amaze me? Siddiq is a child full of love and filled with an enormous amount of curiosity that amuses me and spurs me on...

I'm so proud of him and all of his achievements for a 20 month old boy... most of all his caring and loving nature....

Speaking of his achievements and progress, I guess I should now and then do record such things down... For example, his speech development... Even though I initially thought that he was a little slow compared to his cousin, Sisca in speech but apparently going by what everyone else is saying... he is a very fast learner when it comes to language and speech...

I was kinda secretly enjoying the fact that I was the only one who I thought can understand his language... but as quickly as I thought of that... I found out that his speech is quite understandable by most... Well... it's just as fine by me... :)

Then he has began to be really expressive and animated when he "talks" which is truly endearing and kinda comical sometimes when combined with his "mixed language speech"

Yeap the boy speaks in a mixed language.. How so? Well.. he know various words in English, Malay and Mandarin... so sometimes he put them all in a sentence... which can get a bit confusing for me when he does that...

For example the other day, he said "Tutup feng shan... Mama tutup feng shan" I was like huh?
Then he went to the fan and told me to tutup feng shan and pointed to it... So I switched the fan off... Cause I understood tutup which means to switch off... Then I told him this is a Fan, he shook his head and said Feng shan... Fan. The next day then I found out from his Lao-shi that he is picking up Mandarin from her. He is quite attached to his Lao-shi you see...(The only person he will go to without crying when I drop him off at school...Really, she was another blessing from God!)

Other little expressive gestures that he has done that touched me so much I really did tear...

Last week, he made a flower in school and gave it to me when I came home on that Friday of the Mother's day week. He said, "Mama, Hua..." This week, I came back home so depressed as I had a bad day... I cried... I couldn't take it and had to let it go... Siddiq came to me... climb up on me... put his head on my chest.. Said mama and just held me and hug me.... He did exactly what I needed at that moment... A hug... I thought I was going to scare him with my tears and crying... but instead he became the source of my comfort... He held me all the way till he fell asleep... I never felt so comforted in my life as I did at that moment...

It is indeed a true revelation to me... Initially I thought I will miss the baby in Siddiq as he grows up... Well of course it will always be a part of his growth that I will miss and adore...but I am beginning to see a side that reveals a mature and serious nature in my soon to be 2 year old son... and I am really amaze at that fact... BUT HE is still a toddler in all other ways :) In fact he brings out the kid in me sometimes too! (besides my husband and my school kids) He's Noisy! naughty! messy and lots more! and I'm totally enjoying and having a wonderful time with my little toddler! I had a lot of rough patches when he was a baby.... but alhamdullilah I've overcome them and having a much easier time with Siddiq the toddler! :)

I love you so much Siddiq Zaheer Shah! Mera pyara bacha!

Mummy and Siddiq goofing around! (we are the goofball partners in crime!) :P Sometimes nenek really cannot tahan our nonsense! :P hehe... We shall continue to irritate the living daylights of our love ones k! It's their privilege yeah! ;)